Sometimes life can be soooo hard and you wish you weren't where you are or doing what you are doing? There are times you look around you and the solutions you seek are just not forthcoming. I had often been told that the closest time to the dawn is the darkest and that when all chips are down, look up. How then do you look up when your tears have blinded you to seeing clearly?
How do you stay motivated and encouraged when all hell is breaking loose around you? or how do you encourage others who look up to you? How do you pray when it seems the clouds are gathering around you and you are swamped on all sides? How do you escape when screaming "GOD" on top of your voice and "JESUS" with all your strength seems futile.
I feel helpless sometimes and at this time, i am on auto-drive. I don't wanna sound ungrateful, but i really need a break - There are breaks, i know, those dear moments when God surprises me with a favour i stopped asking for but still needed, and when a kindhearted friend and brother gave my sweetheart a wheel when ours is misbehaving - but beyond this, how do you feel motivated when the deepest desires of your heart seems unreachable and unattainable.
By the way, the picture is that of my church's altar, cool, hun?
POST SCRIPT - Do you know that when we are busy looking down, God is busy making things right? Good that He is first a Father, then a judge!!! All's well that ends well. as-the-light-comes-shinning-through-my-life-again, i know that God is watching out for me. It's just a matter of time, yeah!